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Creo que es un poco extraño empezar a decir a modo de confesión algo que he estado sintiendo desde hace mucho tiempo, no se si es algo cliché o no, no pienso discutir eso, sin embargo si creo que es algo fuerte ser padre en estos días, no hablo de dinero, permítanme explicarme.
Todos tenemos valores familiares que cultivar e inculcar en los niños, particularmente soy padre solo de niñas, porque así lo quiso Dios, pero yo creía que tener hijos varones seria mas fácil para mi, porque entendía la crianza y la forma en la que crecí como hombre así que seria fácil criar a un varón, porque "ya tenia la experiencia y el manual" pero las cosas no salieron como yo pensaba o imaginaba.
Mis dos padres fallecen, 3 meses después, mi esposa queda embarazada, y eso para mi fue un torbellino de emociones super extrañas, no sabia como manejar todas las cosas, después de un tiempo, mi esposa vuelve a quedar embarazada, sin embargo, al nacer, lo que me sorprende es que ahora tengo dos niñas, dos mujeres que no se como hacer crecer ni criar ni educar, tenia miedo de asearlas, de tocarlas, de cualquier cosa porque las consideraba muy delicadas, ya supere esa barrera gracias a mi esposa, y llegamos al día de hoy.
Creo que el mundo esta muy difícil, en todos los sentidos y creo fielmente que el que es papa de niñas, debe ser un hombre protector, fuerte y quizás, en buena forma, pero hay cosas que aun no se ni entiendo, como por ejemplo ¿Cómo sabre que lo estoy haciendo bien? ¿Cómo debo disciplinarlas siendo mujeres? creo que son cosas que al final no sabre ni entenderé, tambien suelo pensar que si mis padres vivieran, todo seria mas facil, porque los papas siempre saben dar mejores consejos para esas cosas, o eso es lo que dicen.
EN
I think it's a bit strange to start off by confessing something I've been feeling for a very long time. I don't know if it's cliché or not, and I don't intend to argue about that. However, I do think being a father these days is quite intense—and I'm not talking about money; let me explain.
We all have family values to cultivate and instill in our children. Personally, I am a father only to girls, because that is how God intended it. But I used to believe that having boys would be easier for me, because I understood upbringing and the way I grew up as a man. So, raising a boy would be easy because I 'already had the experience and the manual,' but things didn't turn out as I thought or imagined.
Both of my parents passed away, and three months later, my wife became pregnant. That was a super strange whirlwind of emotions for me; I didn't know how to handle everything. After a while, my wife got pregnant again. However, when they were born, what surprised me was that I now had two little girls—two women whom I didn't know how to raise, help grow, or educate. I was afraid to bathe them, to hold them, or to do anything because I viewed them as very delicate. I've already overcome that barrier thanks to my wife, and that brings us to today.
I think the world is very difficult in every sense, and I truly believe that a father of girls must be a protective, strong, and perhaps physically fit man. But there are still things I don't know or understand, like: How will I know if I'm doing a good job? How should I discipline them as young women? I feel these are things I ultimately won't know or understand. I also often think that if my parents were still alive, everything would be easier, because parents always know how to give the best advice for those things—or at least that's what some people say.
Translated to english by IA
