There are two kinds of songs or stories that always hit me the hardest. The first are about the passage of time, saying goodbye to the moments that will never visit again.
Time is a funny little mind trick, while I intuitively feel it’s an illusion, I haven’t found a way to experience past moments as vividly as I felt them the first time around.
I believe that “the universe constantly expanding” is us experiencing each moment for the first time, that life is the experience of outward expansion, that we are riding on the waves of that outward expansion, and that when we die, we stop experiencing time as linear.
All moments constantly exist as well as all possibile moments but we are surfing out on the edge of existence where the flow can only pull us in one direction.
The second kind of song or story that hits me like a freight train are those that make me feel nostalgic for a place I have never been.
In my dreams I see places that feel more like home than anywhere I’ve ever been…a valley at the foot of a mountain far bigger than the Himalayas, a tree at the top of a hill, a town that is a culmination of many places I’ve been and seen, a where memories are stored and all cultures blend seamlessly, everyone is at peace and happy to be there despite nothing being perfect.
I don’t know what these dreams are. Visions from a past life? An emotional blueprint of the future? Images from a different timeline somehow connected to this one?
In any case, this feeling of nostalgia never leaves me. The fact that I’ve relocated so many times and haven’t seen some of my closest friends in years only adds to it…but the deepest feelings of nostalgia are the ones I can’t explain, for places I’ve never been in this body, for a home I have never been.
The first half of my life was spent looking for that home, but now, the second half is about creating creating it with my own hands.
I’ve subconsciously been on this path since I was born, but now I realize that everything I do is in service to this and that everything else is periphary.
The next video will hit those strings of nostalgia. Currently browsing through moments that fill me with that beautiful nostalgia and make me glad that I came to this mysterious blue dot floating in space.
Check out my first music video here:
“Art vs. Artist” by I+Everything MV
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