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Apologies when you hear apologies what comes to mind most time we just see apologies as saying I'm sorry or being remorseful for us something bad that we might have done in the course of our words or our actions but sometimes we will also say we are sorry render an apology and still don't mean it some people lie some people just say it for peace to win.
For me a lot of people say I don't apologize well I do when I sincerely know that I'm wrong but when I know that I'm on the right side I don't do the apologize film for the sake of peace to rain I find it hard to do that but as life goes on a lot of things change and I had to change too.
So in the year 2024 I got into a relationship with someone it was a long distance relationship from the past relationship I always got the you don't apologize for anything statements in every single thing at some point that made me doubt my personality I know I'm not a wicked person I know I have apologize when I'm wrong I'm sorry I become literally part of my daily vocabulary.
Being in a long distance relationship with a guy named ugo was not easy at some point we are okay starting it off it was good we communicated well barely had issues you know how lovers can be at the beginning everything was all bed of roses.
At some point a lot of things began to go wrong we fought just issues stepped in he was skeptical I was skeptical but we still manage to get along you know one thing about love seeing your partner is that most times they don't get to see the real you the unfiltered you.
So we didn't really have issues of infidelity or anything of that nature till he came down for us to see for the very first time that was us meeting physically for the very first time and we really wanted to see each other well after that I went back home I saw him that they and I went back home then the second time we met up.
He gave me his phone to take pictures and a message pop top and it happened to be from a girl that he met in town he told me before he came back that he hasn't been here for the past 17 years and doesn't know anybody here so tell me why you are meeting up with another person in a way you are not supposed to.
He apologized I'm sorry and all that and all that and I thought he actually changed but no he was all a lie he's sorry was I'm sorry not sorry I was just too blind to see that. As time went by he finally be located down to my town living ogun state I was so excited we had something serious coming on looking forward to creating memories and making a family with him but the same incident happened again.
This time around it happened with a lot of people at some point I lost count I didn't even know how to confront him again what to say or what not to say because each time I do he will tell me his sorry and I will forgive him and he will go back to doing the same thing again apology because why do we apologize and still do the same thing that we are apologize for it doesn't make any sense to me.
Well finally destroyed that broke the camels back was when he told me that he was going for a AI program AI program another city only for him to leave on Friday and I didn't hear anything from him till Sunday when he told me he was coming back then he said he got me a gift that I should come and pick it up I got there and unfortunately for him and fortunately for me a message popped up on his SmartWatch which he left on his bed stand and it was from another lady who was thanking him for the time they spent together.
I got really angry and asked him he was still doing this he said yes and said it was nothing I left and called of the relationship he came to my house and apologize again but this time I knew that he never meant it and he doesn't even mean it this time. It's not so bad to apologize to someone you love and not be intentional about it but life happens.
Apologies are very dedicate and should be handled with care we should learn not to apologize carelessly and still go back to our sins.
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