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Don't know why or how I got to this level but in as much as I don't like the feeling of hurting people when it seems like I don't want to give them an access to me or reduce the access they have to me, most especially my time, sometimes I still feel like I need to do better. Especially when it ended up affecting my plans for the day, the things I had to do and I end up choking myself with tasks that should have been sorted smoothly.
The part that get to me is when this access is taken for granted and there is no value for it because I had presented myself to be too free even when I had a lot of things pending to sort out but I just wanted to be there and not absent when my presence is needed.
In the past months, I am very certain I had not been handling it well when I find myself in that situation but I can vividly say that for the past few days, I've been trying my best to limit the access but might still not be placing the boundaries as it should be.
Although, I observed that doing this makes me feel distant especially when it's someone I'm so close with but I guess with time, I will be able to balance my emotions with the necessity.used to think that eventually there would be some magical point where everything would become clear. Maybe after university and after getting a proper job.
Maybe after earning a certain amount of money but it just seems that as you finish one thing, another thing just pops up and immediately you start wondering what you should do next. You achieve something you worked hard for and instead of simply enjoying it, you start thinking about the next goal. You finally become comfortable with where you are, and then life changes the rules again and you then start to understand why they say life is not fair.
Like life doesn't sit still long enough for the plan to remain relevant. The person I was five years ago wanted different things from the person I am now. I am sure the person I will become five years from now will look back at some of my current plans and wonder what I was thinking. That doesn't necessarily mean the previous version of me was wrong.
It simply means people change. Sometimes the dream you had at twenty doesn't make sense a few years later, and that doesn't mean you failed. Sometimes you discover that what you thought would make you happy doesn't actually do it and i guess .
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