Have you ever been ashamed of yourself? If so what happened and why and how did you move it forward?
Being ashamed oneself is something that can happen to anyone because our actions sometimes or mistakes can lead us to shame. For example, when i was in junior secondary school, my school went for quiz competition. I was chosen to be among the people that will defend our school. We did all the necessary practices and preparations before going for the competition. The day arrived and we went. While i was speaking to defend my opponent, i got stocked on the way. And it was my last speech. I forgot everything, infact i lost my speech at the moment. Guess what? We were defeated. While on stage, i was ashamed of myself. My colleagues started clapping for me and that was when i was a bit relieved. After the competition, i was still ashamed of myself even going to school the following week became a problem to us because i was the reason why we were defeated. Others did theirs perfectly but i didn't know why i forgot my speech on the stage.I didn't dwell in the shameful state forever. I had to move forward my bearing the shame. I started going to school with boldness. I spoke with the school authorities and my friends about my feelings and how shameful i am for not defending my school properly. They understood with me and encourage to let go off it and try to improve next time. That's how i was able to move forward.Next time was leaving with one of my aunt's named Love. She was taking care of me actually but refused to do one thing for me which made me angry. We where about writing our junior waec exams and she couldn't afford to pay the fees for me. I went and discussed it with another of my aunt who asked me to come and stay with her if the person am staying with is not capable of taking care of my needs. She immediately gave me money to go clear the fees in school which i deed. So, i had to leave my first aunt without telling her to go stay with the one that paid my fees. So, my aunt Love started looking for me when she came back and noticed am not home. Fortunately, she found me in her sister's house. She wasn't happy and also blamed her sister for taking me in without telling her. She left with anger and after few months, i feel like returning to my aunt Love because she is free to be with but this my second aunt is full of laws and orders. I was ashamed of going back to Aunt Love. I went to plead with her but she walked me away. I was very much ashamed of myself. First, i was faulty, i wouldn't have left her house in that manner. Well, i had to discuss with my friend who is also her best friend. Both of us went to her a second time for she to accept me back which she did. I had to return to her. Immediately she accepted my apology, it wiped away the shame on my face.
This last one really made me uncomfortable not just shame. It was seeing gray hair on my head at the age of 12. My class mates then do call me old woman because of that. I didn't know it was natural and hereditary from my grand parents. I was insulted in school and at home because of the gray hair. I was so uncomfortable and shamed of myself because it was only me among my mates had gray hair. I told my parents about it because it was many on my hair. They told me that I shouldn't be ashamed of myself because is a hereditary that am not old. With that, o wasn't ashamed anymore. Even when am being called old woman in school, i don't longer feel shamed because my parents has straightened my mind.
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