On Friday, my Mom had a reaction to a treatment that I endorsed should be given by one of her new specialists. From a medical perspective, this treatment made complete sense as the next step in her treatment. Her reaction was certainly a severe allergic one which required an epinephrine injection and landed her in the ED all day. She's currently recovering and decreasing the amount of medications she requires for her symptoms. Everything is improving.
Nevertheless, I'm blaming myself for this. If I hadn't endorsed this treatment, she may have not received it, an this reaction would not have occurred. It's a very rare reaction that nobody could have predicted, but the fact remains that if she didn't receive the treatment, it would not have happened in the first place. Nothing that I did to help thereafter could reverse this fact.
I just seems to continue hurting her even when I want to and try to help her. What the hell is wrong with me? I don't even trust myself as a physician right now. I'm beyond embarrassed.
She also found out that I've been on the road of shutting down FreeCompliments on Hive. This did cause her concern because she knew how important it was to me, but the fact remains that helping her is more important to me. Not to mention, I still don't feel fit to lead the community.
On that note, I've acquired the funds to rewards HSBI. The $BTC has been converted to $HIVE, and I'm now deciding from which account I'll be sending these rewards. I presume I'll send them out either tomorrow or Tuesday. This will be the last big set of rewards for this community; after that, I'll have some small remnants sent to people who are completing their jobs for the community after October.
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