For the longest time, I’ve always had cold feet on my birthdays, I didn’t like to be in everybody’s faces AKA “The spotlight”. I hated being in the spotlight, I could support people on their journey to being in the spotlight but when it’s my turn to get there I always shy away.
I didn’t like all the attention that came with being the celebrant of the day heck! I wasn’t a fan of posting my pictures and seeing so many people reposting them all in the name of my birthday.
I’m not a fan of excessive calls and text messages as I get really tired of getting all chatty for a long period of time. So whenever I thought about my birthday I thought about all the “paparazzi” that came along with it and the need for my birthday to go by so fast was always my sole desire.
I always admired people who are always overly excited about their birthdays and I always wondered why, I know we are to be grateful for life, the additional year, and the rest but people being overly excited was always surprising to me. I could sometimes get excited but only momentarily.
This kind of feeling has been there for a long time, following me from year to year, and if I had my way I wouldn’t tell anyone about my birthday or even just let the day go, so I don’t get all the attention for 24 hours but too bad most people in my life already know my birthday so there was no need hiding it.
Up till yesterday morning I still had the birthday anxieties, I still wanted the day to end without anyone knowing it was my birthday but everything changed the moment I reflected on my life.
I thought about every damn thing I have had to go through in time past, I thought about all the Highs and lows and so many other experiences that have in one way or the other shaped my life and journey.
Throughout my journey in life I have never had a better yesterday nor have I been broken to pieces by all the challenges of life and then it sank.
I have been growing from one level to another, accomplishing my dreams and making impact. Why then should I not be happy for a very special day in my life?
Reflecting on my life was just what I needed. I became really excited and, all forms of anxiety disappeared.
Is this new feeling here to stay? We’d find out, do I feel happy about this feeling? Absolutely!
For the very first time in a long time, I celebrated my birthday without walking on thin ice and it feels great🥳🥳🥳
Since I caught the Birthday spirit I decided to have dinner with my friend, it was impromptu and she was surprised that I could call her out as it wasn’t my thing.
We had an amazing time and we were also able to paint. The restaurant had this sip and paint thingy going on so it was a great opportunity to not just sip my drink but paint with my friend and it was fun😃
I love how happy I felt about my birthday, not the momentary happiness but the genuine happiness that lasted for a very long time.
I’m saving this on the blockchain as a reminder of when I felt different about my birthday for the first time in years😃
Thanks for stopping by
Loads of Love🥰🥰
XOXO
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