There are 2 sides to each and every person. The first one is the one the world sees and the second one is the one inside. This has happened with me as well. There have been times in my life that I pretend to be someone that I am not, so that people will accept me, respect me, or avoid judging me.
But I am different in many ways the person that I really am. Understanding these two aspects of me has helped me to develop and be more honest with myself.
The character I assume has to seem confident, strong, and sure of himself at all times. I smile in my face when I'm worried or when I'm not happy. I do this because I do not want people to think that I am weak. I pretend that I have everything under control when I feel confused.
In some instances, I say yes to other people even if I may have my own opinion as I do not want them to get an argument or to be disappointed. I want to be seen as a brave, smart and successful person. This definitely adds to my reputation as a good guy, but also can get very tiring when sometimes I'm not myself.
I'm a lot different in my real life. I have a lot of questions, a lot of doubts, a lot of fears in my heart. I have anxieties about the future, and what I am doing. At times, I find myself feeling all alone even in the company of others. I am not perfect and I don't know all the answers. Like everyone else, I need encouragement and support. My true self is learning, developing, and striving to be a better man every single day.
Sometimes I pretend to be someone else for a variety of reasons. A one is because of the fear of being judged. Others are often expected to be perfect and I don't want them to be disappointed. The other reason is because of the societal pressure. In the social media and everyday life world, it appears that everybody is happy, successful and confident at all times.
This can make me feel as though I must hide my weaknesses as well. Also, I pretend, because I want people to like me. I think that showing all my problems could cause some people to not understand me.
There are positive and negative aspects to pretending. It can help me to remain positive when I find myself in a challenging situation and it can give me courage to take on challenges. But it's not good to pretend all the time. It can make me feel stressed because I must keep on acting. It also is hard for people to know who I am in reality. It is not all about making it look perfect, true friendship and true relationships are about being honest. If I don't reveal myself, I don't give others the opportunity to support and encourage me.
As I continue to develop, I want to make the distance between the person that I'm playing and the person that I am smaller. I want to express my emotions without fearing of what people will think. I want to embrace my strengths and weaknesses, as they are me. I know that I don't have to be perfect, and I don't have to be perfect, to be valuable. I just have to be honest, kind, and wanting to get better each and every day. I think that being “real” results in more peace than impressing people.
So in conclusion, I pretend to be someone who is confident, fearless and always in control, but I am actually learning, challenged, and growing all the time. I can pretend to be happy in society, but that won't make me happy. I have come to understand that I must embrace myself first, rather than trying to please everybody.
There are times, however, when I am choosing to be myself, when I become more confident, when I have better relationships, when I live more peaceful lives. It's not always easy to be real—it's the very best way to live a meaningful and happy life.
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