Alone time, family, music, nature, good food, casual outings... I could go on to give a long list of things that gives me happiness at their own point in time but I'm choosing not to take that approach for the prompt.
Maybe I have some issues with figuring out if these things are really what makes me happy or if I am the one failing to make them what really makes me happy right now.
It is indeed, the pursuit of happiness for me. Recently, I've been feeling like I am forcing myself to be happy and so it seem like I force things to make me happy.
I look at myself in the mirror and smile with a few words like "You are beautiful" and I feel happy about it. I get done with my day's activities even though there were lapses and I compliment myself to feel good about it.
Some days, I have to fight through bad news, bad feelings, aches and pains to make sure I find happiness once again. It's like a daily fight between sadness and happiness but I feel like I was born to win this fight no matter what.
Ever lost to sadness in your pursuit of happiness? One of such moment do come to mind and then I think again, did I really lose to sadness that time? Did you?
I mean, looking at myself now, I am not sad and I feel just enough happiness to carry on with life's troubles. Doesn't that mean I won over the sad moments from those times I felt defeated by them? Yes, I believe so.
Looking back to my habits until now in regards to creating my own happiness, I could say I am doing a great job. I've won over moments that could have taken away my happiness countless times and that is a proof that I have good habits to create happiness.
Okay, I think I've listed out most of what I find happiness in at the beginning of the post and that hasn't changed.
I could find happiness in little things like putting on my favourite wear, smiling at someone's smile, listening to a music that just felt so right at the time, watching birds fly around when I feel tired and enjoy my favourite meals every now and then.
These are just enough for each day and I love that these things are what I could make happen myself. Creating my own happiness is way easier and achievable than when I try to make people happy because happiness is for everyone to find for themselves.
Honestly, it gets hard sometimes to stay happy but I love that I have to pursue it, just enough for each day and maintain a stable habit of doing that without any sign of difficulty.
It's more fascinating that the things which makes me happy when I was little haven't changed much but the amount of gratitude I feel about these things now are way more than when I was little.
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