It took me a little bit of time to really reflect on the hardest thing I have done this year, as today's prompt topic requested. The end of this year is near, and I must admit that many things in my life took different dimensions, but it's all for good. Each day, a lot of things kept unfolding quite differently from the way I had envisaged this year to be for us, but then, it's been unfolding with lessons and experiences for a better future for me and my family.
On a few occasions, I have mentioned the challenges I have been going through with my first child in relation to his brain. The last time I had reason to mention him in my blog, I stated that since this year, he has been quite stable and just fine, but I didn't mention all the journey so far I have been involved with him, which is bringing a desirable result. And so the hardest thing I have done this year is my ability to manage my emotions while continuing to manage the health condition of my first child, which affects his memory.
This may sound mild to some people, but trust me, it's a whole lot I deal with before having results. It's quite challenging to deal with a child with brain issues and so emotional to me as a mother. Many times I lost it. There was a time when all I did was watch him and cry, especially when I remembered how things were going well for him before the health challenges, and that hurt my heart badly. I reflect on how he struggles with his academics regarding the memory issues, and it hurts me even more. I was almost helpless and kept thinking loudly of what will become of my child as he continues to grow. I saw that competing with his mates in school was becoming a bygone, but I didn't judge him because I understand that he is not in total control of what's challenging his brain. There has been a lot about him in different aspects of his life, which affects my emotions severely, but sometimes this year, I took a further step...
With the help of his doctor, I started researching the natural remedies to improve his memory. Most of it wasn't so easy peasy, but I went out of my way in order to see changes. His doctor also cautioned against overloading him with academic work load, and then I had to reach out to his school, and they scrapped some subjects, which aren't too much of a problem. I became more involved than ever before in his academics to see improvement despite what he is going through. I didn't want anything to limit him in any way. Engaging with his teachers wasn't a negotiation; there has been a strong parent-teacher relationship. Every little step I have been taking meant everything to see him make small strides, and while I do not expect full success immediately, there has been an obvious progress.
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I have had friends who constantly talked to me regarding the emotional trauma I have been dealing with regarding my child's situation. I have my family who advised me on his case with suggestions about his future endeavors; that alone calmed my nerves, and I began to see and think positively about his life. Trust me, I was gone before, but with how things have been playing out and taking a good shape, my emotions have been under control while I have continued to give him the support he needed in many ways.
Navigating this challenging journey has been demanding, but the experience taught me patience and resilience. Everything might seem to have been overwhelming, but I have persisted and kept moving on. I couldn't think of any other hardest thing I have done this year, but this, however, is a whole lot to me, and seeing how far I have gone is simply fulfilling.
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