You know I have very few friends; when I say very few, I mean very few. I have just three friends. Yes, that is how bad it is. I say to people every day that I love my bed and my phone and that gives me peace of mind. I kind of used to be a social person when I was younger I had a lot of friends in primary and secondary school until I got to my senior secondary school days where my parents were now vehemently against too many friends and I started cutting down the fabrics of my friends and it reduced to four and that was when the whole thing started.
I don't go to people's houses except when invited; even if invited, it takes extra force and extra push for me to honor that invite. Mind you I'm not proud this is not pride( although I'm not supposed to be the judge of that..), I just "I just do not like the outside world" and my friends have complained bitterly about this but still I find it hard to leave my house if not school, church, work or maybe the market, I said maybe because I don't just stand up and say I want to go to the market, I must have plans to go to church or work which is close to the market, if not that, then nothing else.
Recently I received an ear full of how I should go outside to mingle with people and get to know people more, I was talking to one of my friends and she asked me "Why don't you want to make friends " and I replied her it's not that I don't want to make friends it's just that the way I was brought up, I find it hard to be friends with people (hey, I don't have a bad character, or maybe 🤔). Even though I don't have friends per se when I go out and I meet my coursemates and people I know I make sure we interact so fine you would think we have been friends for ages but no we are just course mates, I call a lot, yeah once you are my friend just know you would be getting loads of calls from me. I know life is busy for everyone, but once in a while, I just tend to pick up my phone to greet a few people, family members (extended); I talk to my nuclear family every day, friends, colleagues, and even coursemates if I have your contact.
Recently, something happened that made me feel I need to work more on my friendship or, should I say, relationship skills 🤔. I was seriously sick for days, and I was doing everything by myself even when I could barely move; my friends two lived in another state while the other was close by but in another community. I saw a lot of people I knew walk past me just waves, and then they were gone. That was when I decided that Esther you need to step up.
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